Sleepless nights. Keeping yourself busy. And then there comes the point, the edge of the task, period, day, experience ... and then you have to decide: do I go another round or am I gonna breath. Breath in and feel all this chaos that wants to be felt. We don't learn from our mistakes . Feelings never just go away, pain doesn't disappear just because we ignore it. It stands there bold, waiting to be felt ...emotions you never let yourself fall into because you were afraid of the dark parts inside of you. But this is you. All of this. Everything light and everything dark. There is nothing to be afraid of because you are, and I will hold you beloved soul. I want you to come home and fall. Fall into dark and end up in love.