Why being yourself is such a struggle

I just woke up and had a thought about being authentic. Thought I might share it on this blog. When you can’t be yourself around someone or in a group of people, usually it is because they do not want you to be yourself. I think if you don’t want to think about how you really feel and what is really going on inside of you or maybe you hurt someone- you do not want to be confronted with people who are real.

They remind you of your own pain and your true hidden self.

You know those people where you don’t feel like pretending and you are just yourself? I know, they are quite rare. I believe they make you feel accepted because they accept you. They are not scared to be confronted with real life, real feeling, their real inner self.

I know that it is hard to admit that your friend is actually not accepting you for who you really are. It hurts. But it hurts anyway. You feel it or you oppress what you feel. You admit it or you join the game of pretending.

The same goes for love life- if you can not be yourself around a guy and feel like you are not good enough, just know that there is a reason why you feel that way. And realizing that you can’t blame yourself for feeling so uncomfortable and out of place, makes me take a step back and think: If this is what this Person is like, I should be careful not to force myself to open up and invest and pretend I am okay. If the price for being a part of something is my own heart- I don’t want any of it.

I don’t know… It’s hard to explain… I think this has a lot to do with believing yourself and taking yourself serious. And if your heart feels uncomfortable- you believe yourself. That you are not feeling this for no reason. You are not a crazy person.

If it hurts, someone hurt you. Simple as that. Sure it is possible that some wounds bleed because something happened in the past, but I think you can tell the difference between being triggered and feeling that something is off- most of the times it's both.

Society is promoting so much individuality yet it still wants you to be like everybody else. Every Situation is different- I know. Just a little reminder for those who doubt their perception. Have you ever thought that you are crazy because someone made you feel this way?