of tales and stories.

You never stole from me.  Never forced my heart. Never caged me in.
Since the first day I met you, you left my soul free and my spirit open.  You never caged me in.
You made me chose love
A thousand times
Always gave me the space I needed so badly
You never had a grip on my heart that burdened my breath
or took the wildness from my eyes

You left me choosing you a thousand times
In a thousand lives
It would always be you. 

And although your absence left me broken in pieces
I still remember the way you handled my soul with uttermost caution
the moments you saw me. 

I knew you were my home the moment I looked into your eyes
on that rainy September day, standing under that bridge with tears in our eyes

There is not a part of you that is not supposed to be drenched with love. 
It scares me to death to think that will possibly fail every attempt at loving you the way you deserve to be loved. 
Of not being your save place. 
Of you not being mine. 

You never caged me in. 
You never claimed or pressured me. 
And although I like to think that I needed you to love me harder, 
To love bolder ...

You gave me exactly what I needed the most
-freedom. 
Space to realize that If I had to choose again ...
...it would still be you.
In every tale, every story and every song
I would always look for you.

You never controlled me, 
never blocked the light from coming in
You never made me feel guilty for being me.  

And now that you’re gone
I realize that I needed you more than I would like to admit
I needed you to share your innermost
and name all these fears

I needed you to let me know where we stand
Not once
Not twice 

Your lips should have released the unspoken fires in my soul
and your eyes should have drowned all my doubts...

...and I am sure they would have
if they could have..

..and that is what I am starting to realize now:
Deep down inside I knew that I deserved to be loved with absolute certainty.

I needed run wild and be loved with utter conviction all at once.