And today is not a Moment existing beside my reality, it is the blood that is running through my veins, rising to the surface when in pain, rushing to unburden, heal my shame and remind me: In feeling there is gain.

It is incredibly hard to imagine ever feeling wonder and joy again in the most authentic parts of yourself when you are in the midst of a storm that is testing your foundations. How easily we can give up on life is something that shows….

And grace doesn’t only find you on blood drenched knees when you are begging for help to lift you up from the pits hell, it opens your eyes to see that in your most rebellious and hurting moments it was chasing you with love, it was…

It still feels like a bad dream to me. Our goodbye like a missed punchline. All the time spent waiting, hoping and wondering. All the days spent doubting. I tried so many times to awake myself. To push my heart back into reality, but reality feels like a lie without you.