Hey guys, I actually dont know who is still stopping by to check my blogposts but I haven't posted something during this summer. Writing stuff basically requires you to think. And thinking means falling. Falling into thoughts, falling into feelings...falling into exploring your mind. And that was not something I was ready for this summer. I briefly read a few thoughts from an article about emotional numbness, where the author described numbness as a part of a healing process and this thought eased my mind.

I always considered feeling nothing and being numb to be the worst that could ever happen to someone. So I never really tried to let these emotions of feeling nothing BE what they are. I didn't appreciate them so i denied that numbness was something that was actually present right now and right here at this moment. Wounds leave scars and scar-tissue is not something that is sensitive to warm, cold, a touch or water.  And that made me think.

This is kind of new to me... considering numbness to be a part of a healing process and not something where you are stuck in this nirvana of nothingness. Accepting even numbness and facing it as a part of who you are, means coming closer to the essence of your being and making peace with what is and what is not.... i guess.

I missed writing. I missed it so much.

This is nothing to special but it is a small step in the direction of what feels familiar to me.

Hugs XX