I guess it happens. You loose your voice. When everything around you becomes so incredibly loud, it makes you dissolve into the noise around you.

Until it all silences down again.

I was always trying to see light in the most heart ripping moments because I could see truth in everything that was pouring into me. But when chaos hits you hard, it is so easy to believe that grace has left your side.

I am just here to say that it didn’t. If you feel it is gone, it hasn’t. And the moment you doubt that everything happens for a reasons, I want to let you know that your perception is not holding your future. It is a father that does. And grace doesn’t only find you on blood drenched knees when you are begging for help to lift you up from the pits hell, it opens your eyes to see that in your most rebellious and hurting moments it was chasing you with love, it was healing you. Kingdoms rise and fall and people come and go, but you will be held forever. If you are seeing now and go unconscious tomorrow… there is a place for you to open the gates and flood your soul with whatever arises, whatever comes and whatever leaves. And love will forever bring you home.