THE IN-BETWEEN| you never chose yourself
And just as i started to realize you were real , you slipped through my fingers . I never had you . You were always the in-between-state of uncertainty and not leaving.
slipping through my hands.
No matter what happened… I always had this sense of knowing where I am …who I am …somehow I always was able to grab myself. It was the last piece of control I had left. Control over myself
MY ABILITY TO RUN
My ability to run from things scares the helll out of me. And still am not quite sure if I wanna be stopped. This year meant nothing but chaos so far...
emotional numbness is a part of healing
I always considered feeling nothing and being numb to be the worst that could ever happen to someone. So I never really tried to let these emotions of feeling nothing BE what they are.
Goodbyes.| when it's time
The hardest thing about goodbyes is when you're constantly asking yourself whether letting go of someone is the undeniable solution or an awful mistake...
BEING ALL IN| midnight pondering poetry
You wanna get to know me? Show me all of who you are and then some more. Unveil your fears and joys, Let them loose…falling into arms that are willing to hold
I dont like seeing myself being needy|random thoughts
„Being needy equals being worthless“. That’s what my thoughts bouldly proclaim. Fully convinced that I would never be that person, I distanced myself from everything that could ...
It is what it is| poetry picks
Just had some thoughts on love these past couple of days.... That maybe sometimes we need to let go the idea of how it should have happened and how it is supposed to be and just let it be what it is...
When the presence of a person depletes you| boundaries
„Sometimes I don’t see people for who they really are“ was my friend's answer to why some people's presence drain you. She told me that sometimes she forgets, that this person is ...
Hello 2017| daring to dream again
And it feels good to know that I’m not the only one who feels like that. It was like a year of holding my breath, numbness, waiting…enduring. Almost giving up dreams, hopes, resignation.
Being authentic and self-acceptance
Being myself once was easier…but as you experience relationships, life breaks you… people break you.
If there is no one around you where you can be yourself, you will likely not be yourself around...
Falling out of love|the art of pretending you're not
I feel like falling out of love is not possible. I believe that we can have a crush on someone or like someone very much but I don’t think that love has the ability to stop...
