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Life leaking out my veins| Paris

A meltdown -a throwback. For me, it is an awakening to my self-hate. My heart speeding up, to reach my paste of self-destruction. Greeting me with a loving fall into the very core of my heart …

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Make myself forget.

It still feels like a bad dream to me. Our goodbye like a missed punchline. All the time spent waiting, hoping and wondering. All the days spent doubting. I tried so many times to awake myself. To push my heart back into reality, but reality feels like a lie without you.

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You can't analyze art.

There were times where I took my diary everywhere. Every time something made me upset or anxious I would write, write everything down, every fear and every lie running through my head. It was a book …

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OVERSIZED & CASUAL

City trips. Summer air. Travel vibes and messy hair. I am not gonna lie- I am lowkey dying from the heat right now. I am constantly questioning why you have to be either a summer or a winter person- why can’t

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Almosts.

Some days feel like I can forget how it felt to be held by you. Where I don't remember the look in your eyes when you took my hand and shared a piece of your precious heart with me…

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Where I was most lost.

I found myself in all the places, I was most lost. -ekp-Hardships only happen to change something deep in our character. Deeper as in beyond our control. You were ready to trade Egypt for reality but…

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One Morning.

"I wonder if there will be a morning when you'll wake up missing me. That some incident in your life would have finally taught you the value of my worth. And you will feel a surge of longing when you…

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Summer evenings| wrap dress

Dark blue is not my first color choice when it comes to clothing. But it felt so flowy and light that I had to take it. It doesn't match my usual style choices for summer and falls a little bit more into the evening…

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Feeling it all.

I am feeling it. Feeling it all. The peace with myself …that caused war with  everyone else not willing to face their inside. I am feeling it. The loneliness of being misunderstood…

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dungarees and innocence

It is okay to let your heart wonder, to hope as if you were never disappointed and to be a little more naive than you are allowing yourself to be. Not to suspect a hidden motive in a conversation…

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