It took me a while to admit that I wasn’t listening to you, that I pushed you aside and was mad at you for every attempt of speaking up
. I cut you off more times than I can count
and denied you when you needed my loyalty the most…
I am sitting here sobbing in my bed at 11 am in the morning because I could feel the hurt of my porous boundaries, too much pleasing and rejection for expressing where I start. My boundaries have been broken far too often …
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The need to feel understood. I think we all have it. We all want someone to believe that we make complete and utter sense. That there is no defect. I am starting to understand that there is a treasure hidden in being misunderstood
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I guess I felt really uninspired... I wanted to write honestly. Wanted to say what I am actually feeling. All the fears I am breathing at the moment. But I just couldn't. If I would have, I would have had to feel the void…
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It still feels like a bad dream to me. Our goodbye like a missed punchline. All the time spent waiting, hoping and wondering. All the days spent doubting. I tried so many times to awake myself. To push my heart back into reality, but reality feels like a lie without you.
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This is a song I wrote a some time ago. You can let it be about whoever you need it to be. Make it mean the things you need to hear. For me it was about justice and sorrys. Believing in yourself after too lates…
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There were times where I took my diary everywhere. Every time something made me upset or anxious I would write, write everything down, every fear and every lie running through my head. It was a book …
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You are a home that has been turned into a war zone. And even though everything happened for a reason that you do not fully understand yet, it is time to come home. Come home and win the very …
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I wanted to mean danger in the most innocent ways. Scaring your fears to death while calming a restless breath. With a look in my eyes that unveils every failed attempt of love as a declaration of lies …
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Some days feel like I can forget how it felt to be held by you. Where I don't remember the look in your eyes when you took my hand and shared a piece of your precious heart with me…
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I found myself in all the places, I was most lost. -ekp-Hardships only happen to change something deep in our character. Deeper as in beyond our control. You were ready to trade Egypt for reality but…
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"I wonder if there will be a morning when you'll wake up missing me. That some incident in your life would have finally taught you the value of my worth. And you will feel a surge of longing when you…
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Dear heart, learn to lose it all. Don’t hold back the insanity of being an endless history... eternally wandering on the search for life and beauty. Barely hanging on to hope and the path filled with doubts.
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I am feeling it. Feeling it all. The peace with myself …that caused war with everyone else not willing to face their inside. I am feeling it. The loneliness of being misunderstood…
I’m having some time to think about stuff since it is finally weekend. I had little to no time for meditation/ lying in my bed and processing my life and that is something my heart is desperately…
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I wrote this text some weeks ago and I have some catching up to do on this blog. I hope you don't mind being bombarded by poetry, music and a little bit of chaos.
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Caught in between unfinished stories and what if’s . How to draw the line of where your heart can’t take it any longer.... is there a point where the feeling of uncertainty reaches more power than the love you..
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Poetry pick for this month... You never stole from me. Never forced my heart. Never caged me in. Since the first day I met you, you left my soul free and my spirit open
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I think almost all of us can think of a moment where we felt understood and seen by someone when we needed it the most. I do not claim that there are many people out there who are paying attention...
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To those moments. Reminding you of what love feels like, dropping down heavily like pouring rain from grey skies- not able to hold back any longer, endless nights and caring texts. Love may ask you to...
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